Thursday, December 15, 2011

Last Night in Shasta Lake

Today was a grumpy sort of day.  My fiance and I were sniping throughout the entire afternoon.  My brother came over to say good-bye -- probably the last time I'll see him.  Now we're getting ready to go out to dinner at one of our favorite restaurants in town -- it will be the last time we eat there.

I feel like I'm abandoning the people I love, yet I never see them anyway.  In some ways, because living abroad will be an adventure -- thus blogging more -- could actually bring us closer.  We have Skype so we are still just a phone call away without a lot of extra expense:  I hope that's how it works.

There's still a sadness and some regret.  Like maybe if I had lived my life in a different way, I wouldn't be moving half way around the world.  But what would I be doing, instead?  Somehow the sensible alternative is just too boring.

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